Dear Divine Ma,
What Do You Want Me to Learn Today?
“How much are you willing to give up—to sacrifice—for this path you are on? Some at Ananda Assisi have shaved off all their hair to renounce ego, to give it all for the guru. What do you give? You give money, yes. You give months of your seva, yes. But how about your attention? Your commitment? How about your senses? Your overeating? Your lack of exercise? Your attachment to things of the body? When will you give those to the guru? There’s a lot you still have hung on to, isn’t there?”
Yes, I’m not yet a total renunciate.
“Why not? You wear the garb as if you were.”
True. But I’m still in process. Affirming toward a noble goal. I truly want to give it all. It’s just that I haven’t yet completely succeeded. But it’s a new year, and my story isn’t over yet…