What do You want me to learn today?

St. Teresa of Avila showed what its like to truly and completely open her heart to the Lord. She held nothing back. There was no way the Lord could miss impressing His consciousness upon a soul so wide open. Yes, it made her vulnerable to pain and suffering, but mostly to the shame of having been an imperfect disciple too many times in the past. She suffered because she had ignored the greater teachings of her guru, Jesus the Christ. How many times have I ignored the influence—the mandate—of dharma that my gurus and teachers have laid out in front of me? I haven’t even begun to feel the wretchedness of turning my back on the essence of these teachings. What will it be like when I finally do?