Dear Divine Ma,
What Do You Want Me to Learn Today?
When You come in meditation, am I supposed to experience more than I am presently? I almost never saw the yellow ring with the star in the middle, and seldom hear the Aum distinctly.
“But you experience my Light and you feel My vibration. What more is there than those? God IS infinite Light and ever-present Vibration/Energy behind all that is. All written passages and even paintings are but clues toward the actual experience. The Light that you experience”—more like a column of pulsating energy than a static ring—”is the presence of God, if you’ll only drop what you think it is supposed to be. ‘Whatever is, simply is,’ your Swamiji wrote. ‘Wishing it were different does not change it.’ You have been experiencing the same state over and over for a few years now, and yet you continue to disbelieve. Wasn’t it your own Sri Yukteswar who asked your guru Yogananda, ‘What did you expect—an old man with a long grey beard?’ You have been searching for 40 years now. Why be so amazed that your searching has paid off? Are you done yet? Of course not! There is always another layer to explore of ‘endlessness.’ “