Dear Divine Ma,
What Do You Want Me to Learn Today?
I discovered something today I had never fully known. I have been accustomed to meditating 45 minutes, or at most 75 minutes comfortably. Meditations longer than that were often a tapasya for me. Sure, I could do it, and felt I should do it out of loyalty to the guru’s teachings. But I usually never much felt the point of them. I could do one—or even two—all day meditations a year, and feel virtuous about doing it. But it almost always felt like pushing myself to do a marathon when I wasn’t really “in shape” to do so.
But today, with Jyotish and Devi leading, I realized that the reason people do longer meditations is because God and Grace can “descend”—or is it we who ascend to join where they dwell—more than once in a session of meditation. I have always bailed out once I felt the touch of the Divine in any form. I’m not sure I’ve ever remembered that if I “hung out” in the silence longer, that God would visit again and again, and each time in a slightly different and varied way. Wonder upon wonders!